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mandeexryan716
13 June 2009 @ 01:38 pm
Ugh I have absolutely no fuckin clue why I am so damn depressed right now. I guess cause the past couple days I've been silently been going through a break up and instead of being the typical emotional female I let it dwell inside till I can't fuckin take it but that pretty much goes towards anything I care about I don't show emotion so I kinda just let it eat away and then have random times of breaking down crying my eyes out.
 
 
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: "All These Things I Hate (Revolve Around Me)"- Bullet For My Valentine
 
 
mandeexryan716
12 June 2009 @ 12:57 pm
Ugh I have such a fuckin hangover it's not even funny. Why I thought 4:30am was the perfect time to go shot for shot with Sav I have no fuckin' clue! Ugh I am going to Towson today and chillin' with Chris and smokin.
 
 
Current Mood: drunkdrunk
Current Music: "A Beautiful Lie"- 30 Seconds To Mars
 
 
mandeexryan716
12 June 2009 @ 12:50 am
Lol I haven't geeked in awhile! Wow now I know why I missed smokin good buds [:
 
 
Current Location: my own universe
Current Mood: highhigh
Current Music: "Prom Queen"- Lil' Wayne
 
 
mandeexryan716
11 June 2009 @ 10:44 am
Ugh this fuckin sunburn is killin' my shoulders! I'm really regretting not wearing sunblock haha ugh. Son of a bitch
 
 
Current Mood: soresore
Current Music: "Fiend"- Coal Chamber
 
 
mandeexryan716
Tell me the truth, why did you fall in love with the first person you loved?
He was my best friend and it was painstakingly  obvious we were crazy about each other

Are you afraid of losing the last person you talked to?
kinda only cause I know how I get when I have a crush on someone so I am trying to be cool

Is anything bothering you?
the nightmares I had

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
I wish Patrick didn't have to work so late

Have you made any new regrets this year?
yes, still not finding a job

Whens the last time you had a headache?
last night haha

Is anyone else in the room with you?
nope I'm home alone

Have you had sex with your number three on your myspace?
no way Jose

Who was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone?
Chris

How do you feel right now?
queezy,scared,tired

Does anyone call you babe?
a couple people call me that

Would you rather date someone with a British accent or an Irish accent?
mmmm Irish [:

Would you ever get a tattoo?
I have two already so yeah

Who was the last person to text you?
Patrick

Is there anything that you are craving for right now?
some attention and maybe cheesecake

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone a lot?
-sigh- yes

What are you most anxious/excited for?
this weekend

Whats your favorite drink?
limeade & pink lemonade

Would you be able to date someone who doesnt make you laugh?
no. having a sense of humor that is compatible with me is VERY important...I'm a serious jokester

What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
"Holy shit! that scared me!"

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
not really. I don't have a lot. I am very very happy my best friend back in Maryland but other than that I do not have much.

What were you doing at 7:00 am?
having nightmares

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
atleast 6

Do you know anyone who has been arrested?
me and some of my friends haha

If you could go back in time, how far back would you go?
6 years old

Have you ever kissed the last person you texted?
nope here's hoping

Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in
front of them?
enough

Do you like someone?
yes

What's the one thing you do when you're mad?
scream or completely shut down...depends on the level of anger

When is the last time you said "i love you" to your number 1 on your top?
I'm sure it was yesterday...I tell her that a lot shes my best friend

How do you feel about your hair right now?
it needs to grow so it can be super long again I hate my short hair ]:

Have you ever had someone sing to you?
yes

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Hot Topic

Last person who told you things were going to be okay?
my mom I think

What's something you really want right now, be honest?
A job. I need to do something with my time and I'd rather get paid for doing it. I am so miserable being unemployed for so long it's ridiculous.

Do you sometimes wonder what the world would be like without you?
Almost all the time. I think it would be better. Since I am just one less person to make feel like shit everyday

Do you eat candy daily?
nope

Last thing you touched not computer-related?
haha my phone

Does the song you're currently listening to remind you of anyone specific?
It's one of my favorites and yes it reminds me of my ex

Last beverage you had?
lemonade

Other than surveying, what are you doing right now?
thinking and downloading music

Does it annoy you when people say they'll call but never do?
very much...if it's something important Idc but if you just didn't want to then don't say you will

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
before I get in

What did you do today?
I just woke up so not too much

Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
haha I think once cause I was running so late

Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?
wow no I do not have the ability to pull that one off

Have you ever ran over an animal?
a deer a couple times but I felt really bad

Who was the last person to give you a ride somewhere besides your parents?
Tim to take Savannah home

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
of course

What was the last text message you received?
Online!

What will you be doing within the next two hours?
listening to music, practicing russian, shower, bed.

Do you still talk to the last person you really liked?
yeah

What do you usually do right when you wake up?
pee

Are there any stressful situations in your life?
my family, love life, financial situation

Did you do something bad today?
nope

Have you spoken to an ex at all this week?
yes I did yesterday

How old is the oldest person on your top friends?
37

Ever stayed up all night on the phone?
word

When was the last time you talked on aim?
last night

Are you currently reading a book?
Always

If someone hit you, what would you do?
ummm fuck them up

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
no I usually make them feel awkward

Is your life simple or complicated?
complicated


 
 
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
Current Music: "Blue (Bird Shake Mix)"- A Perfect Circle
 
 
 
mandeexryan716
10 June 2009 @ 09:01 pm
I came across this writer's block selection and thought I'd share one of the worst break-ups ever. I dated this guy for about a year and I was so smitten and happy and thought the world of this person. He was there for me during one of the most trying times in my life so far and he was very understanding and didn't judge me or think less of me. Who knew that was going to quickly change as soon as he asked me to move in with him cause of family drama. He very quickly turned into this heartless momma's boy. After about a year of living together he out of nowhere broke up with me stating the fact I had changed when I was still the same person he was seeing since day one. Anywho after a 5 hour fight that ended at around 7am he helped me pack all my stuff and helped me move. He told me when it was all said and done he still wanted a relationship we just couldn't live together so I agreed and said we can try and make this work and actually ended up going out right after that. The next day I called he had changed his number and I got a text from his friend saying I was pathetic and needed to move on. What a douche! So basically it was just a ploy to get me to leave peacefully. The funny and sad thing is he put up more of a fight for the Playstation 3 than our relationship...douche!
 
 
Current Mood: deviousdevious
Current Music: "Leave Out All the Rest"- Linkin Park
 
 
mandeexryan716
10 June 2009 @ 04:09 pm
After hours of boredom I have finished my mood icons...my ass hurts from sitting here and I am starving! Haha sadly I feel somewhat accomplished by this cause their really cute and I ♥ all things kawaii! Anywho Im going to eat watch TV and be a slacker.
 
 
Current Location: the kitchen!
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: "Be Quiet and Drive (Far Away)"- Deftones
 
 
mandeexryan716
10 June 2009 @ 09:01 am
So I am creating my own moods cause I do not like any of the preset moods LJ has. Right now I am going to go back to sleep and finish later but I have enough done right now so I'm satisfied [:
 
 
Current Mood: satisfiedsatisfied
 
 
mandeexryan716
10 June 2009 @ 07:04 am
Eep! So I am severaly sunburned from not wearing sunblock outside for like 4 hours yesterday. My own fault I figured every other time I do not burn this was one of those times! This blue jelly shit makes me smell like a wintergreen or somethin'. I cant believe I am up so early its ridiculous considering I didn't go to bed till 3 am. I guess the fact I had nobody here and I always have that fear of someone breaking in or something kept me from sleeping too much. Plus I don't want to sleep all day and miss Patrick's call.

Patrick is not what I was expecting at all, he's almost taken me by surprise in a good way. I mean he seems to be one of a couple people who can put a smile on my face without it feeling like its forced. Its lame cause I seem to miss him a little when I don't talk to him, and after all my issues I confessed to him the other night [which most have gone running for the hills afterwards] he still seemed just as eager to get to know me and talk to me. I haven't met him yet so thats kinda stopping me from completely being like I really like you but I see myself having a tiny crush on him and it's been awhile since I've crushed on anyone. A part of me wants to tell him and see if hopefully I get those same words back in return, but I run the risk of hearing "I just want to be friend." I don't know what I want this to become maybe we will just remain that and even that I am fine with cause I can always make more room for friends. However, I also want him to have the same attraction to me as I do for him. Anywho I just want to know what he's thinking and feeling about me right now. Either way if it doesn't happen I want to have his friendship cause he can put a smile on my face and we joke a lot and have a lot in common.

Who knows....
 
 
Current Mood: curiouscurious
Current Music: "Sugar"- Flo Rida
 
 
mandeexryan716
10 June 2009 @ 12:13 am
I seriously hate having the house to myself right now....nobody online,nobody can chill just basically by myself this blows a big fat one ]:
 
 
Current Location: still at home
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: "Counting Bodies Like Sheep to the Rhythm of the War Drums"- A Perfect Circle